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Hey Jen, I can feel for you. Most of what you are experiencing is normal. I find that my playing ability diminishes based on the day I’ve had. On those days that I’m just not in the groove, I just keep playing, and try to accept it knowing the next day may be better.
It’s funny, I always say that I just play for me, and I don’t really care what others think. However if that was really the case, I wouldn’t be afraid to play in front of others. I’m anxious like you. So, there must be something deeper, like feeling like I need to be good enough to play for others, and can’t make mistakes. I think that your Nana is right, and no one really notices the mistakes, muted string, missed notes, etc.. And I really think no one cares. So, why am I still afraid to play in front of others? Hell, I’m still afraid to post a video here! I still try though, and sometimes will play in front of family or friends. I usually set them up, letting them know that I am nervous playing in front of others, and what they get, is what they’re going to get. For me personally, I need to find others to play with. I think that could be a big step in improving my confidence.